It started with a small matter... I just wrote some word that I read from a story on my status... why must he react this seriously? It's just a small matter... he's too serious... he said that I don't believe him, he said that I always keep things from him, he said that I keep asking his friends about his old crush, he said I doubt his love, he said his love is nothing for me, he said that he's sad cause I don't believe him... I always believed him!!! It's just that I'm curious why he liked her before... I'm always curious to such a thing... I also asked my parents why do they love each other... I'm always curious to such thing!!! Yet he said I don't believe him. I never thought of asking his friend about his old crush, it's just a coincidence that we suddenly talked about her... nothing more!!! He said that I rather find my friends than finding him... I'm trying to believed him and stop doubting him now... yet he said this kind of things... I'm just speechless... that's what I am in his heart... the girl who doesn't believe her own boyfriend at all! I'm like a fool, that is lectured by my own Bf... how could he doubt my trust to him. If I don't trust him, I will call him everyday and ask him to hand over the phone to his friend and ask for prove whether he really is beside him. I really don't know how long our relationship will last... I'm new to love, I'm not the kind of girl who always clinging onto her bf saying she's hurt, she's sad, she's blah blah blah~ I just don't want to trouble him with this small matter, so I decide to do it on my own, yet he said I don't care about him.
"I don't want to break up with you cause I still love you"
That's what he said in his last line of message. What does this mean? People said true love won't get affected by distance. but what his friend told me is true... 'Distance really affected love' ... I cried once I read his message, how could he said all those things that hurt me... Can't he see I already tried hard to change for him? I'm really tired... tired of this kind of things... I don't wanna let go... I REALLY LOVE HIM!!! BUT HE SAID I DON'T CARE OF HIS LOVE AND SAID I THINK HIS LOVE FOR ME IS NOTHING! HE'S TOO MUCH TO SAID THIS THING!!!
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